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Today's prompt is what can't I accept about myself? Why?

The card I pulled was the 4 of Cups, reversed. Oh boy, reversals!!

If the Page of Clubs was straightforward, this was another think-y draw. On its surface, the 4 of Cups is generally about discontentment and dissatisfaction. The honeymoon period is over, the magic is lost.

This is a card where a Waite-Smith (of which my St. Petersburg Tarot is a clone) and Thoth comparison is interesting and potentially fruitful.

In the Thoth deck, this card is titled Luxury, and is associated with Moon in Cancer. As the Moon is Cancer's natural ruler, this would initially seem like a positive and comfortable card. I mean, "luxury"? But the colors and image, while not devastating, are hardly warm and fuzzy:



But this was not a reading with the Thoth deck. This was, as with most of the readings so far, done with my St. Petersburg deck, which is a Waite-Smith clone.



The primary differences between the two are that the figure in the Russian Tarot is blonde and dressed in noticably luxurious (hey! that word!) clothing (of course, all of the clothing in the St. Petersburg Tarot has lovely embroidered bits along hems and ediges, but here it is overmuch), and instead of sitting with legs and arms crossed, he's kneeling and has one hand raised to his chast, palm out. But there are still three cups before him, a tree branch above him, and an ambiguous sky-hand. Is the fourth sky-cup one the figure is desiring in his grumpy mood? Or is it one being held out to him that he can't see because he's grumpy?

The LWB for this deck takes the reversed meaning of this card (since I did draw it reversed) as unambiguously positive: new possibilities, new solutions, new relationships, new knowledge. More or less in line with the reversed meaning given by Waite in The Pictorial Key to the Tarot. Hardly something I would "refuse to accept about myself."

I am not somehow secretly unhappy or dissatisfied with my life, generally speaking. Perhaps this "generally speaking" is the kernel of the issue: I'm not acknowledging whatever dissatisfactions I do have. In what arena of life could I be ignoring my own unhappiness?

After two years in a foreign country, I have a solid grasp on the language, though not the fluency of my mother tongue. But I'm handling it.

I have a solid, long-term, supportive relationship.

My career is a bit slipshod at the moment. At the moment I'm gunning to be a certfied teacher, but since my credentials aren't originally in education (aside a CELTA, which isn't nothing, but it's also not a multi-year degree program), I'm realizing now I potentially will have a lot to make up. And even now, I only think I'll like it. I know that schools can be a bereaucratic, political nightmare (all this on top of managing students) and I don't know if I have the inner reserves to handles that. Otherwise: do I have the inner reserves to be a proper freelancing editor and tutor? Or do I give up on all of my English-related career goals and return to retail instead? Should I focus more on my fiction writing? On jewelry?

LIkewise my partner's career is slipshod for similar reasons, namely having a lot of education to make up. It would be lying to say that it didn't stress us both out. This goes hand-in-hand with my slipshod career: we both have fairly meager safety nets to begin with, and we both acknowledge a sense of fiscal and general responsibility for the other. I do look at my other immigrant friends who are equally slipshod in their careers but who have partners with stable and fairly well-paying jobs, and sigh wistfully. Sometimes.

It would be a hard thing to admit that the career experience I've accrued so far might not be relevant for what I would actually end up doing, or that I might need to put my career aspirations on hold for the sake of a little more money (and probably a lot more peace of mind). Is this what I can't accept?

Date: 2015-12-25 03:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] starfrosting.livejournal.com
unrelated to the reading you shared here, I'm curious:
how do you interpret a preponderance of queens in a reading? I tend to think of them in terms of manifestation and materiality so I'm inclined to think it has something to do with that: fully manifest, present, etc. I just did a reading last night where three queens turned up so I'm curious what you think.

Date: 2015-12-25 10:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tarot-scholar.livejournal.com
Actually this is totally related to the reading I just did on the solstice, because I got 3 of the 4 Princesses and I've been wondering about that.

I tend to see court cards (and especially Kings and Queens) as people, like a lot of those Queen types turning up being significant helpers (or hindrances), I guess I'm just a touch literal in Tarot.

On a more abstract note we seem to have a different philosophy re: queens: I see them as the introverted and inward direction of their elemental energy. Like an indication that you need to inwardly master that energy *before* you manifest it. So now I'm interested in your entire court card philosophy, because it is so different from mine!

I have a internal schema where each element is a kingdom

Pages/Princesses: the student of the element, learning about the elements rules and values
Knights: the defender/representative of the element; out exploring the outside world
Queens: the manager of the element; managing things behind the scenes and making preparations
Kings: the ruler of the element; the public face within the kingdom and the one who creates and enforces the laws and customs that underpin everything

So it *seems like* what you associate with Queens I associate with Kings.

Pages and Knights I also see as messages of a certain type rather than people, from time to time.

In addition to the traditional zodiac associations.

Date: 2015-12-25 05:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] starfrosting.livejournal.com
oh interesting! I like the elemental focus (which is a big part of how I read tarot generally). I guess I tend to read court cards through a hermetic-appropriation-of-Kabbalah schema, where they correspond to the four kabbalistic worlds in a super elementally-inflected way. But I don't do this according to the Thelemic (or is it, also, Golden Dawn?) system, but more to my own understanding. I don't have this super systematized yet, though. Especially because of the gendered "king" and "queen" stuff, it's nice to leave some flexibility.

Date: 2015-12-31 12:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tarot-scholar.livejournal.com
I've been known to use an old-fashioned gender binary model in my readings, particularly if it seems like the reading is pointing to a specific outside person being involved. But I find the elemental kingdom model much more useful for when the reading seems to be pointing towards my own energy and how I need to manifest it.

My knowledge of kabbalah is spotty at best. Even though I love the Thoth deck, I could never get into that aspect of the system (and, subsequently, of the entire GD structure).

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